OUTFIT: THE KIMONO EDIT
A little cliché never kills nobody, does it? That’s what I thought until I got frequently asked about my origin. “You look a little Chinese… are your parents from Asia?” - “Erm no they aren’t.” - “Also no one of your distant relatives?”. You can guess my answer. At first I felt offended by that question because I was reduced to my narrow eyes, light skin, and dark hair.
It happened everywhere that I got asked: At university, at the doctors, I got asked by strangers that I just met - even the kebab man from around the corner asked. That’s what got me thinking about my reaction to this simple question. Why does it make me feel bad? Because people don’t know my background of being allergic to kinda everything causing my drooping eyelids? Because people apparently consider me looking exotic? Do I subconsciously think that these assumptions make me less German? Am I acting patriotic towards myself?
After digging a little deeper into that thought carousel I felt even worse. By feeling bad about people considering myself asian looking I downgraded the fact of looking asian. And that’s totally not what I intended. After having that realization I wanted to change my way of thinking - even if it was a subconscious one. In the future I want to accept the question as a compliment and respond to it like that.
Maybe I wasn’t loving the fact that people thought of me looking different than others. But you know what? In actual fact looking different is super duper cool. Standing out from the crowd has never been something I felt insecure about - so why not embracing looking different not only in clothing but also in looks? Sometimes we have to question ourselves and dig into seemingly harmless remarks, which, however, occupy us internally. Sometimes it's a surprise how reflected thinking can change attitudes, can't it? Today this apparent cliché doesn’t kill me anymore like it used to.
all pictures by talented @eldala